Monday, May 31, 2010

June 2010 is a good month to begin thinking to ourselves, 'make some extra money for the holidays'. Working 8 to 5 is not cutting edge enough to fulfill a satisfied life of having internet available to stay on blogspot.
I go on an expedition in my kitchen table to draw up a plan.
Here is my resolution to a non-problem: I will sit and wait for the days to come by while working and consulting with myself on a blank 8'x11" paper. Then I draw one line, some scribbles, and a few inspiring words, and then crumple the paper. That was the end of trying to create something new for myself and another lingering idea that has just left my mind for now. So on to the next idea that is still pushing my mind to do something that the body doesn't really want to do. Minutes later, I set a new layer of paper and a pen in hand. Didn't I just let go of this idea and wanting to create a new piece? The idea hasn't left the building. I'm sure this happens to most of us with a great idea, but will often never get to accomplish.
And therefore, the sleepless nights begin. I figure thats why in the morning some people have issues when someone says hi, how you doing? Don't talk to me!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Wake up and smell the coffee

2010, we are at the halfway mark of the year. What have I done so far to improve/better myself or accomplish the many wanted tasks of what I stated at the start of the New Year? My once a week resolution list to accomplish something every week as a way to get closer to my goals have become a stack of pile in the back of my mind. Still planning and saying to myself, "I need to finish this and that". Procastination or just being lazy, or maybe just tired of work so when the weekend comes I look forward to finish nothing, and needing more to replenish myself from the exhausting week. The only thing moving forward is the penny jar. It grows every week by a penny to pay off a wholesome debt. The number one New Year resolution that most people have is to get out of debt. I'm fullfiling that goal by not feeling guilty donating a penny at every grocery store's donation jar and coining my jar. On the other hand, what have I lost over the year that needs to be replaced or needing to regain connection too?
I ask myself as another day, week, month, or year goes on and another birthday goes by, what have I improved from the last time around when I looked at myself in someone else's eyes. Ask yourself, or I ask myself are you/me still the same person agewise, attitudewise, and actionwise?
I think so, but ask someone who knows you personally... maybe only 50%. It's June, half way through the year. Got to do something about it.